"When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father You are king over the flood
I will be still and know You are God"

And, Chelsea, are you okay? You made me damn worried uh. You were damn weird just now. I don't know, but I was observing you. You seemed damn down, and annoyed. ): I love you, I love you, I love you. ♥ TO THE MAXXXXX. I'M SO SORRY I DIDN'T HANG OUT WITH YOU GUYS. ): ♥ HEH, will make it up some time eh? Maybe by having MEEPOK with you and joel! (:

And, Sean Tan. Thank you for texting me just now. Even though you were at semb park, having fun. Playing with crabs, apparently. HAHA. I'm glad that we're both on quite fine terms right now. And, I'm glad that we've both put our past behind us. Thank you friend. (:

Emilia, I love you. I love you super a lot a lot. I'M SO SORRY THAT I FELL ASLEEP WHILE YOU WERE TELLING ME YOUR SORROWS. (pssst, you know who!) HAHA. I LOVE YOU. I even made maggie for you laa! Inside got my ♥ you know? HAHA. And you threw my ♥ AWAYYYY. ): Ahh. Next time, I wanna go your house to play and have fun. Alright? Can? HAHA. I love you, love you! ♥ AND, I'm REALLY SORRY that I didn't know how to help you, regarding the thing. (hope you know who i'm talking about! winkwink*). SHIT, you made me feel damn crazy this whole day. Many in facebook. (: Only posted my favorites! (:




Project J made me feel damn awesome. I felt damn great singing to ONE WAY, JESUS! (: ANDAND, YES LORD YES LORD YES YES LORD! Like, (Y) L (Y) L (Y) (Y) L. ♥

And, for people like JOEL. Thank you for like standing beside me when I was being by sadself at the place there. HAHA. Thanks. Really. Thanks for like, being there for me when I feel left out. Cause seriously, after you stood by me, I didn't feel left out any longer. THANK YOU HOTTIE. HAHAHAHA. (chels, laugh ♥)

RACHAEL I LOVE YOU. LIKE REALLY LOVE YOU. HAHA. I wasn't there for you when you were down, I'm sorry. I didn't know how to be there for you. Well, cause I seriously didn't know what you were thinking. Didn't know how to help you. BUT, you were there for me. You wiped my tears away with your fingers. Really, you're damn fab. I really think you're the best. HAHA, and honestly, I don't care what people think of you luh. Cause, from what I see, you're not what they say. (: You were the FIRST person I turned to. At the bus stop. I miss how we were when we were sec 1, sec 2 kids. REALLY REALLY MISS IT. You were like my, number1. I don't know uh. Those 2 years, honestly, were the best time of my life. ESP SARS. I don't really like cliques, but SARS was (Y) (Y) TO THE MAX. But I guess we both went diff ways. And really uh, these few years, I feel like I can't understand you. Esp about (name here) and (name here). I hope you know who I'm talking about uh. (: I love you, ♥

OH MAN MAN MAN MANDY. I WILL LOVE YOU LIKE, ALL THE WAY, TILL THE END UH. HAHAHAHAHAHHAA. YOU LIKE KNOW ALL THERE IS TO KNOW ABOUT MY ♥ LIFE. I AM DEAD SERIOUS. HAHA. You understood me and sean and all those shit bull that was like a decade ago. Somehow feel like you don't understand me and ted. BUT, I STILL LOVE YOU LA. (: (: (: I'm smiling like mad. Cause Idw you to read my blog and be sad. Seriously! (: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. I LOVE YOU, LIKE  *(&#$!(*$&(*@)!$^!!!!! (:

BAIJUNXIANG. I AM SO SORRY FOR NOT REPLYING YOUR TEXT THAT DAY! I was so ): and so tired and LAZY. I'm sorry brother! I think you're fabbbbb too! HAHA, SHOUTING "EY, STEFHANIE LEY" from like the far far away stairs! HAHAHHA. I rmb that! :D AND SIEWMUN! OH MY, ♥ AND, viona! (: Thanks for telling me to cheer up! Really really appreciate it loads. I'm SERIOUS! (: Hope you and Jin Kang last longgg longggggg longgggggggg until cannot zai longgggggggggggg anymore! (: (:

ALVIN, DEAREST DARLING BROTHER FROM ANOTHER MOTHER. I THINK YOU ARE AWESOME. I LOVE YOU LIKE ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥!!!! (: (: THANK YOU. THANK YOU for teaching me to keep myself BUSY so that I won't think too much. Thank you for letting me see, I'm not the only one who's suffering. YOU have EVERY RIGHT to break down. But yet, you're keeping a smile and staying HAPPY. AND LOOKING AT THE BRIGHT SIDE OF THINGS. I really really look up to you. (: I'm so sorry that I stopped chatting with you on the phone last night! I had to talk to my TWIN. (: I'll listen to you (most of the time), HAHA. ♥ BROTHER FROM ANOTHER MOTHERRRR!#*&!(&# (: Meet you up for MOVIE ASAAAAPPP kkkkk??? (:

TEOWEISONG. FUGGER! THANK YOU for falling asleep while thinking of ways to cheer me up! HAHA. You're damn funny uh. I think right, you play DUNGEONEERING with me for MORE THAN 4 floors, I HAPPY LIKE FUCK ALR. HAHAHAHA. And, rmb rmb, we at there use HOKKIEN vulgars to scold those fucked up angmors! HAHAHAHHA. DAMN FUNNY. And, they're like, what, 13? HAHAHAHA. Go die fugger. I WANT TO PARA. I WANT SWINGS. I WANT ICE POP. I WANT MANY MANY. ): got one girl say she'll buy ice pop for zhixiang. nonono, ): I was the one who buy ice pop for him at 666 area that time. ): girls magnet. ): ANYWAY, THANKS FUGGER. YOUR MUM'S FOOD IS FAB.

WEISHAN, I need to TELL YOU!

Loser. (:

Yay, I reached home earlier than usual today. Cause I was short of cash and cause I was starving. Haven't eaten since 10.30am. (Y) Well, I steamed some mince meat that my mum prepared before hand! I have a craving for McSpicy now. ):

I'm home alone. Dad's working night shift. Mum's outside with her friends.

My EmathP2 was passable.
My ChemP2 was a killer.
I couldn't even do a single question.
All I do anyhow one.
I stared at the paper for 15 mins.
Then I stared and stared.
And I fell asleep -.-
I only started the paper 45mins after it started. :/

I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO THURSDAY AND FRIDAY.
I hope it won't be any bad news, ):


meeting tws. usual.
Have to go bath.

Will have a life once Midyears end.

shhh, don't tell me, idwanna know.

I'm looking forward to thursday and friday.
Last paper, plus, no school on friday! (:

I'm tired + lazy to update.
I was out with tws.
Just reached home ard 11 plus.

byeeee. (:

I really should be sleeping.
But even if I lay in bed,
I doubt I can fall asleep.
Fuck this insomnia. #!$(@#

Amathp2 + ELp2 tml.
Goodluck to all. :/

Just keep swimming yeah?(:

"Just keep swimming,
just keep swimming,
just keep swimming,
swimming, swimming."


Just had lunch at pastamania's with teo wei song. I ordered a horrible clams & mussels meal. Suck, I swear. Then I told him that the clams were closed, means its not yet cooked. Then I told him to complain. And he bloody hell complained. :/ So ps uh. So I called Emily and Joel, and pretended to be not involved with his complains. The lady said she'd help us heat up. Then, while they were helping us, we left. <: So ps uh. I like, RAN out. Haha. Its super funny, I swear.

lie to myself, and be happy. or face the facts, and be sad?

http://www.personaldna.com/
you are an architect

Your preference for concrete, visually pleasing things, combined with your confidence and your respect for order make you an ARCHITECT.

You are logical and detail-oriented, which allows you to get things done efficiently.

You are quite sure of yourself, so that you tend to know the best ways of doing things.

Your eye for aesthetic beauty and style indicates that you know a lot about design.

Having a routine and sticking to it is important to you; you find comfort in tradition and familiarity.

Self-reliance is something in which you take great pride—you are confident and down to earth.

You have a basic faith in yourself in many areas of your life, allowing you to be self-assured when facing challenges.

You are a fashion maven, up on trends, but distinct in your own style. You don't follow trends, you set them.

You tend to believe that things happen for a reason, and that not everything is under our control.

If you want to be different:

Try moving beyond the things that you find comfortable—open yourself up to a broader range of experiences.

Question how much you know about things by imagining different possibilities.


Your awareness of those around you, along with your nuanced perceptions of the world at large, makes you the GENEROUS person that you are.

You value time to yourself and understand how rich your private world can be—you know that you don't have to go wild to have a good time.

You are excited and energized by ideas and often enjoy things more through observation than through experience.

This tendency gives you an appreciation for different perspectives and opinions about the world.

Being as aware of others as you are doesn't mean you find it easy to trust them immediately—this is something that happens more slowly for you.

Despite this, you are aware of the complexities of many situations and are reluctant to pass judgments on others.

Although you have fewer friendships than some people, those that you have are meaningful and are important to you.

You value spending time alone—it is while reflecting on the world around you that you often learn something new about yourself or begin to understand something that's been bothering you.

If you want to be different:

Given how attuned you are to others' thoughts and feelings, you might find that trusting people more is a way to broaden your perspective even further.

While you know how much can be learned from observing the world around you, remember that much of life can be lived by experiencing it, not just by understanding it.

In a world with so many people.
I still feel so alone. ):

8th? bullshit.

Sad now. Again.

I can't stand myself.
I get sad for barely nothing.
I get sad because I'm alone.
Which is almost always.

Todays emaths (Y), phys (N).

Emily came over my house today. We had a little clothes game. Dug out clothes for each other to wear. <: Took like forever. Then went off to church. At first, I felt fine. Cause Chels Joel and Sean was there and all. But boom, once they left, I felt like shit. And I don't really know why. Its this empty feeling. Like, it feels as though something is missing. I hate this feeling.

Dearest, I miss you so badly.

count the number of times. ♥

"I'm still alive,
but I'm barely breathing.
Just prayed to a god
that I don't believe in."

It can rain like fuck, and still be bloody hot.
Even inside the bus also bloody hot,
want to sleep also vv.difficult.

Oh yeah, fuck, I studied for trigo for FUCKKKK!@#@!. It didn't come out AT ALL today. Ugh. I hate who ever set the paper. Its like, I studied....for fuck. Oh, history no need say, cmf flunk one. I only did 2 source base questions. And I only did one part of the essay question cause I didn't have time to study finish. <: I spent like 30 minutes in lalaland!

Alright, enough about exams.

I miss having fun and running ard like a kid.
I'm referring to safra, 666, hilltop, and icepop thing. ):
And no, I'm not referring to sean, fuck.
I'm referring to Michael, Song, Emily, Ivan (LOL).

I realised I haven't posted pictures since forever.

phys tuition later, just nice, can study for tml's paper!

Today really sucked. I really felt like breaking down. Vv.soon, you'll see me break down.

English CA1 marks : 69.6%.

The number nice right? Haha. :/

Went over to honey's house to have fried rice lunch! (Y) And, watched TOM AND JERRY, BEN TEN and some other cartoons uh. Haha, was super fun. My cable TV never had kids channels. (deprived childhood)

Anyway, I did quite a lot of maths with Akila and Lia at school today. (: Akila screwed one question up! TWS taught me how to do! (Y). I shall teach her tml! Agh, I'm super stressed can. Tml is amaths p1. And hist! I HAVE to study Japan Fascism. Butttt, I have NO notes. And I have NO time. I just reached home and showered not long ago. :/ I guess I'll go study hist once I'm done with the computer. (:

I like this study mood. (Y) O leveeeellls. ://

I think I do too.
I don't know who am I.

Got called in by Mrs Chan Tee Tee for counselling. What is this man. All I ever did was sleep in class. And anyway, I've alr decided to do WELL in midyears and O levels. What do people want from me. I've alr stopped sleeping in class. The only lesson I slept in today was chem. Cause I was just too bloody tired. I had to do some motherfucking VE project. -.- Aw well, got lectured by Chan Tee Tee. I told her I was meeting Zhi Xiang. And I said boyfriend. She was like, "oh, boy friend." As in, she didn't understand that he was my boy(no spacing)friend. She's quite blur actually. Aw well, she's nice. And I told her about TWS. I told her that he taught me A maths. (:

I should go back to church eh. I haven't seen a lot of people.

Anyway, met TWS to study. Just reached home and showered not long ago. Now I'm freezing, and I think I caught his flu bug. Great. And goodbye. (:

"Its the memories that
make it hurt the most.
Not anything else.
Its just the memories.
A broken friendship.
A lost friend.


Another teardrop."

I should start studying now. I haven't started on chemistry. I guess I have given up on that subject subconsciously? Cause I really haven't started at all. At least I've already started on A&E Maths and Phys.(: Phys is really very hard to study, even looking into the O level study guide makes me want to fall asleep. Aw well.

I haven't collected the tee from boyfriend's friend since like forever? I'm a bit lazy to contact her also. I think I've lost touch with the whole world luh. All I do in school is sleep. All I do when I go out is study. The only people I haven't lost touch with is my boyf and song. But song, a bit drifting away le, we keep quarreling -.-. I buay tahan him, he buay tahan me. Yesterday evening whilst studying, was the 1st time I've seen him flare up to me. He was like (#&$@*($!(_*#$*. And I didn't know how to react. Anyway, people I NEED to contact/go out with asap.

1. Chels.
2. Emily.
3. VANESSA LIM!!
4. Mandy.
5. Siewmun!
6. Bai Jun Xiang!@#!*&.
7. SHAWN NEO.
8. Sean Tan.